the "I'm a shitty boyfriend" chronicles, part ?????

[meteorstorm]

[ this mopey motherfucker is moping around the cabin and probably spending a lot of time (even more than usual) by himself

it's like he has his own aura of guilt and shame and all that other bad stuff ]

Comments

[broshido]

what so you can beat yourself up some more???? no way buddy ( ´△｀)

[meteorstorm]

I fucked up. Again.

[broshido]

so youre gonna mope about it instead of doin somethin about it? thats not the ryuusei i know くコ:彡

[meteorstorm]

I betrayed her trust. Again. She deserves better than that, and there isn't anything I can do to fix it.

[broshido]

hey. forget about this "deserving" crap. that's super dumb. yeah, you hecked up. its not about fixing things, right? you knew that with me, too. but you still tried anyway.

why dont you do what you can, and just let tomoko decide if she wants to forgive you or not?

[broshido]

i forgot the emoticon here V●ᴥ●V

[meteorstorm]

I told her I deserve whatever she thinks I have coming to me.

[broshido]

itll probably involve snakeskin. ఠ_ఠ

[meteorstorm]

Probably worse than that. She can't trust me anymore.

[broshido]

why? you plan on doin it again?? ( ≧Д≦)

[meteorstorm]

No! It's not as if I went there to do that to begin with!

[broshido]

i knew you didnt that snot what i meant geez what i mean is shes the one who decides whether or not to trust you, right? so just dont decide that for her (✖╭╮✖)

[meteorstorm]

If it had only been once, I might agree with you.

[broshido]

youre making it sound like everybody only ever gets one chance like we dont all mess up all the time every day （￣へ￣）

[meteorstorm]

This was my second chance.

[broshido]

did she SAY you only got one ヘ（。□°）ヘ

[meteorstorm]

She didn't say it wasn't, either. It doesn't matter how much I say I'm not interested in Luka-san, I make a liar out of myself every damn time, over and over again. It's not the first time, and even if I want it to be, it's probably not going to be the last. Not if I don't ditch her as a friend. I can't do that. I don't feel the same way about her as I do Tomoko-chan, but she's still an important friend. I can't just dump her like that.

[broshido]

nobody's askin you to do that. tomoko understands. people make mistakes. not... just once, but over n over and over n over.

that's just how people are. ~(>_<~) tomoko knows that too. nd she knows you.

[meteorstorm]

There's only so many times a person will forgive someone hurting them. Especially someone they care about.

[broshido]

maybe. but forgiveness is one of those things that changes. maybe she doesn't want to forgive you right now, yeah. but that doesn't mean that's always gonna be the case. forgiveness isn't something you look for anyway, ryuusei, that's not like you. you just do what you think you need to do. (⊙︿⊙✿)

[meteorstorm]

That's not the point, Gentarou.

[broshido]

what's the point then??? ﴾͡๏̯͡๏﴿

[meteorstorm]

That anyone would get tired of it.

[broshido]

tomoko doesn't tire easily. ( ˘ ³˘)❤

[meteorstorm]

[ you realize how bad that sounds >I ]

She only has so much patience.