the "I'm a shitty boyfriend" chronicles, part ?????

[meteorstorm]

[ this mopey motherfucker is moping around the cabin and probably spending a lot of time (even more than usual) by himself

it's like he has his own aura of guilt and shame and all that other bad stuff ]

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[broshido]

[you're getting a non-intrusive text]

hey you ok???? ｡:ﾟ*+;(●´･д･`●);+*ﾟ:｡

[meteorstorm]

[ what is that I can't even read your stupid emoji :| ]

Leave me alone, Gentarou.

[broshido]

what so you can beat yourself up some more???? no way buddy ( ´△｀)

[meteorstorm]

I fucked up. Again.

[broshido]

so youre gonna mope about it instead of doin somethin about it? thats not the ryuusei i know くコ:彡

[meteorstorm]

I betrayed her trust. Again. She deserves better than that, and there isn't anything I can do to fix it.

[broshido]

hey. forget about this "deserving" crap. that's super dumb. yeah, you hecked up. its not about fixing things, right? you knew that with me, too. but you still tried anyway.

why dont you do what you can, and just let tomoko decide if she wants to forgive you or not?

[broshido]

i forgot the emoticon here V●ᴥ●V

[meteorstorm]

I told her I deserve whatever she thinks I have coming to me.

[broshido]

itll probably involve snakeskin. ఠ_ఠ

[meteorstorm]

Probably worse than that. She can't trust me anymore.

[broshido]

why? you plan on doin it again?? ( ≧Д≦)

[meteorstorm]

No! It's not as if I went there to do that to begin with!

[plainsugar]

[ guess who mad at you? just guess ]

[meteorstorm]

[ I would assume the guy in my cabin who is not usually in my cabin and also happens to live with my (ex???)girlfriend ]

[plainsugar]

You're an asshole.

[ he then punches you right across the face ]

[meteorstorm]

[ not even going to try to deny it, and he doesn't even bother to try to defend himself. he just takes it and hangs his head ]

I know.

[plainsugar]

Do you even know how much Tomoko loves you?!

[meteorstorm]

I screwed up. I know I did. I hurt her again, and I can't change that.

[plainsugar]

I don't even--

I had to hold her while she cried.

[meteorstorm]

I didn't go there intending for that to happen. But it did, and I couldn't lie to her about it or pretend it didn't happen. So she could make her own decision about what she wants to do with a boyfriend she obviously can't trust.

[ for what it's worth, he does look miserable and appropriately ashamed of himself ]

[plainsugar]

What were you even thinking when you made the decision to sleep with her?!

[meteorstorm]

I wasn't. That's the problem.

[plainsugar]

I'm so pissed off at you right now!

[meteorstorm]

You think I'm not pissed off at myself? That I enjoy knowing I keep making the wrong decisions and hurting the last person on this planet I'd ever want to hurt? That I keep making the same mistakes over and over again?

[ might be getting a little manic ]